am I normal ? first time mum, cot death

[radstar]

Please can I have some advice, this is my first post, so please be gentle with me. I'm a first time mum of a 10 week old.

Is it normal to be terrified of something happening to my baby or my partner and close relatives?

I know that cot death is rare and I follow the advice. I know there isn't a great deal I can do about unforseen illness and accidents but I still worry. I'm supposed to go away next week with my baby but not my partner and I am not looking forward to it in case something happens.

When I think about it rationally I know I'm being silly. My partner thinks I'm obsessed with death. But my Dad died out of the blue of undiagnosed cancer and in my work I have seen a lot of dead children. I wonder if that has something to do it with it.

My pregnancy was a surprise, never thought we would have kids but I'm so happy about it, things turned out better than I ever thought for us, I'm scared something will come along and burst my bubble.

I would appreciate your thoughts I have seen good advice before on here - sorry if this too long.

[LovelyDear]

you sound extremely normal to me. You have lots of hormonal and emotional changes to adjust to in your life, and because of your experiences you have an exaggerated idea of the risks life holds. You will find that you learn to relax, and as time goes by you'll feel calmer. But if you don't, speak to your health visitor or GP. i PROMISE a large percentage of mn'ers have been where you are!

[ellingwoman]

You're normal radstar! After about a year waking constantly during the night to check they're still breathing things start to settle down and you just become merely paranoid