Hi all,
DS is 6.5 months and I am thinking about going back to work PT. The plan is always that I go back after 9 months PT: 3 days at office and 1 from home so that DS will go to nursery/CM 3 days a week. At the moment, DH and I are thinking I might take the whole year off instead as DS was a very difficult baby and I am just starting to really enjoy him now. Just a short history: I was abused (by an older cousin) as a child and this happened when I was being looked after by my grandmother who lived with my uncle and aunty so there were always lots of children around so the abuse just kinda happen in the ensuring chaos. Because of this, I was never keen on a CM, I just feel that in a nursery, there's more people around and less likely for things like that to happen. HOWEVER, I went to see one nursery and was not happy that all the minders looked like they just came out of school. I spoke to other mothers and am coming round to the CM idea as I like the idea of someone who is a mother to look after my LO instead of someone who has never had a baby. I do realise this is my personal preference...
Now, my inlaws have suggested an alternative. They live an hour away and we get along mostly very well until DS arrived... My MIL is well intentioned but she does have fixed ideas of how you should raise children and I felt very pressured by her to do certain things... Anyway, there was a lot of tension, which ended up that we didn't really see much of one another lately. My SIL (who is lovely) spent last weekend with us, heard our side of the story and understood as she knows what her mum is like. She said certain things to my inlaws and as such, we 'had it out' today. It was all very civil - what they saw as suggestions to make our life easier, we saw as criticisms and interference. What we saw as non-involvement on their bit was them backing off as they didn't feel welcome by us (I come from a culture where my parents have an 'open house' and we specifically told PILs when DS was born that they should feel free to come and visit anytime but they basically expect a formal invitation to come and visit everytime!). Anyway, it does seem there's a lot of miscommunication. Also, MIL said she doesn't come to us because she has panic attacks and can't drive herself far.
So what they have offered is this, that they will look after DS for 2 days a week BUT because of MIL's panic attacks, FIL will come and pick DS up say on Sunday evening and then drop him back to us on Wednesday morning on his way to work... I don't really know how to feel about this... If MIL said she would come to ours to look after DS, I would feel a lot more comfortable with that but if DS is looked after at theirs, there's so many implications.
PRO 1:
DS will be looked after by close family
CON 1:
I will not have much control over how they raise DS if it is done at their place for that length of time (Can I bear to have DS away from me 3 nights a week?). At least, with a CM or nursery, I have control over certain things. Like I said before, PILs and I come from different cultures and I just don't know if I want DS raise the way they raised DH (though I have to say they obviously did a great job with him and SIL) but how much say can I have if the care is happening in their home?
CON 2:
DS will still need to go to nursery/CM one day a week. Is that going to be more unsettling for him? I actually think DS will enjoy nursery as he loves baby/toddler groups for the social element (he likes watching other children etc).
CON 3:
Because of my childhood (I had to deal with issues of abandonment as an adult), I don't ever want DS to feel abandoned. Will he feel that way if he has to stay part of the week away from us?
Please help! I just don't know what to think!!!!!!!!!!! DH and I can just about afford to have me be a SAHM but I do love my job and I think I will be overall a better and more well-balanced mum if I work PT. I would really value opinions from people in similar positions either as parents themselves or if they had been placed in a similar situation as a child. I know my views are skewed because of what happened to me as a child so just need some honest opinions and any other issues that this might bring?
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angel1976 · 06/09/2008 20:59
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06/09/2008 22:15
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