My son is now 3 weeks and 2 days, and I gave up smoking during my pregnancy. For the first three weeks after birth I didn’t drink or smoke, I just didn’t fancy it at all and the thought of either has made me feel really ill. I have bipolar disorder and OCD quite severely and the past couple of weeks have been really hard, especially not being able to see family or anything I’ve had no support beyond my partner. Last night I decided to have a drink with my partner while our baby was in his crib asleep (we had the monitor with us) and I had a glass of wine while he had a beer. We sat in the garden as it was nice weather and suddenly I got the urge to smoke. I tried to fight it for a couple of hours but I fancied one so bad! The thought of a glass of wine and a fag out in the garden sounded lovely. I ended up having one out in the garden with my wine, and afterwards straight away I went in the shower, washed my whole body, my hair, brushed my teeth, washed my hands and used mouthwash and then waited an hour until I held my baby again as my partner had him. Now I feel like an awful mum and am worried I’ve put him in danger. Does this make me a bad mum?
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I’ve been smoking again and now I feel like a bad mum
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CandleFlames · 02/05/2020 13:55
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