DD1 who's 2.5 has been really pushing my buttons recently and I've had less and less patience to deal with her tantrums as I'm being woken 3-4 Times a night by her and DD2 who's 3 months and totally exhausted. Today she refused to go to the toilet and I battled with her to get her on it as she hadn't been all morning. She scratched my arms and so I grabbed her by the arms and held her on the toilet. She then wriggled forward mid wee and weed all over my shoe. By that point I lost it, man handled her off the toilet, roughly dumped her on the floor and screamed at her. She was understandably petrified and at that point I realised how utterly disgusting my behaviour was. I'm completely ashamed of myself and devastated that I lost it so badly. I just feel like I'm on the edge - I managed to see my doctor this afternoon and explained to a certain extent what happened. She's upped my dose of antidepressants and told me to go back in to weeks or sooner if necessary but I'm so frightened of my behaviour. It's not me, I love my children more than anything and would never dream of hurting them however I could so easily have hurt DD1 this morning. I don't know where to turn and am sat here in tears. I don't need a blasting, or telling how awful I am as I know that already. I just want to know how to help myself or if others have done anything like this before.
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