Does anyone just have a day where they feel rubbish? How do you pull yourself out of a rut?
I feel shattered and almost numb. I am a full time teacher and mum to a 1 year old. I just feel really exhausted by life. I do not get a minute to myself – as soon as my DD is asleep I have to do work. Before I had my LO I used to go into work for 7 and out by 6.30 which was a long day but I never ever brought work home except for Sunday mornings. It was so structured and I had time to be me.
Now I have to do the nursery drop and never even get r breakfast for myself before I leave. I get into work minutes before I need to go to registration and have to leave for nursery pick up at 5.15. I feel like everything I do for my daughter is just not enugh. I have no energy to play with her, I had used the TV to babysit her r so I can try and clean the house which is disgusting. I burnt dinner today and have no other food in as I forgot to do the online shop so he had back up Ella’s meal. I have such nice ideas for how to spend the weekend but when it comes I am just tired it feels like a struggle. I feel so guilty all the time.
My husband works away at times and when he is here he is no help. I have spoken to him and told him how I struggle but he does not seem to care. I have suggested giving up my responsibilities at work and he told me we cannot afford to! I have literally cried to move closer to my family for support and he refuses to do so – he does not speak to my family and wants to limit time with our daughter (I think – he has never actually said this but after we were married he changed in personality which my parents commented on and he had a heated discussion with them and hasn’t spoken to them since). Since we married he has changed a lot and I don’t quite know what to do with it – I don’t know how he hid his darker side for so long. When I do really push him to help I just know there will be an argument of some sort to follow.
I just don’t know what to do, I feel like I am going to drop someday soon of exhaustion. I do not take care of myself at all, unhealthy dinners (gaining weight which is making me even more sad), no chance to exercise – barely a chance to shower without having to play peek – a –boo to entertain LO. I feel rubbish in all my clothes and quite lonely a lot of the time.
How do you all cope? How do you work full time, make healthy dinners, have clean or at least tidy homes and ensure you have groceries in, laundry done?
Do you get any time to yourself?
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user1492876497 · 22/04/2017 22:37
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