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Feel like I'm sinking

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singingpinkmonkey Mon 23-Jan-17 18:38:02

Firstly I apologise for this post as it's me feeling sorry for myself and moaning.

I'm a new mum to my beautiful 10 day old DS and I feel like I am not doing very well.

Today he has spent all afternoon (from 12ish - 5) screaming with occasional 10 minute bursts of sleep. My DH has finally rocked him to sleep. I am currently sat anxiously watching his crib waiting for him to cry again. I just feel so clueless and pathetic. I know some of it is down to hormones but I have spent much of the past few days crying and frantically googling for answers from everything from feeding to sleep routines.
We had a rocky start as I've struggled to breast feed due to my baby having tongue tie and me having flat nipples so now am trying to express breast milk with a crappy Tommee Tippee hand pump and giving that to DS alongside formula.

I read so many books while I was pregnant on what to do when the baby was here but just fee overwhelmed and confused. Everyone else seems to cope brilliantly and have happy babies and I just feel like I'm failing massively and that the poor mite hasn't got the mummy he deserves.

I don't know what I'm expecting by posting this - I know rationally that babies just cry sometimes and that there are a lot of new mums worse off than me but just felt the need to write something down. Does this get easier?


JohnLapsleyParlabane Mon 23-Jan-17 18:40:36

Stop. Breathe.
Get into bed. When baby wakes take baby into bed and have some skin to skin time.
At 10 days the only routine you need is feed/wind/snuggle with nappy changes as required.
You'll be fine.

AlwaysHangry Mon 23-Jan-17 18:45:48

Honestly you are doing amazing x all new mums feel like this I certainly did. the first two weeks were a breeze. it was after that when the adrenaline ran out I was a hot crying mess baby crying, me thinking fuck what have a done!

It will get better just feed, burp, sleep and repeat just loads of cuddles and sod everything else it can wait x

hungrywalrus Mon 23-Jan-17 19:33:19

You are perfectly normal. I Suggest biscuits next to your bed for when you can't get out of bed between feeding, burping and trying to get snatches of sleep. Also a 15 minute shower will make you feel so much better if you can get someone to hold the baby. If not, try wheeling the baby in a pram to be near to you.

Babies are hard work. I reckon the only reason the human race hasn't died our yet is because hormones make us broody.

singingpinkmonkey Mon 23-Jan-17 20:15:22

Thank you so much for responding. I will try and relax a bit and not get so panicked. I am really grateful to be a mum and I just want to get it right.

SunsetOnTheHorizon Mon 23-Jan-17 20:22:04

Right, to make you feel any better, I have a 4week old and he is my 4th. He is a bit of a crier but i have a DD2 thats still at home and two older ones at skl and I feel like I am failing massively. What with cooking and cleaning added into the mix and I am meant to know what I am doing.

You are a 1st time mum, its all new, and it isnt what the books tell you, in practise it is totally different. Get some time for you, even if its a nip to the store, a shower, a hours kip without baby waking you.

Trust us all it gets easier and a few years down the line you will be advising other new mums and telling them what we are telling you.

Breath...chocolate....mumsnet.....breath..... chocolate....mumsnet. grin

mainlywingingit Sat 28-Jan-17 18:46:34

We all muddled thorough with out first babies. Try nipple shields that may help you.
Milk can take some time
To get fully established.

If I were you this is what I would do:

Loads of skin to skin. Try to sleep when baby sleeps. Abandon housework. Limit visitors totally. Get your mum round to help (even with the house). Boob helps the crying and settles them, let them
Fall asleep in the boob if it calms them. Be kind to yourself it is hard. Join UKBAPS Facebook breastfeeding group they give brilliant advice.

I just had lots of lazy lazy days in bed breastfeeding (it was a brutal and hard start for me but I persevered).

Try to relax and have a bath daily just to get a few Minutes to yourself.

Whatsername17 Sat 28-Jan-17 20:46:29

I'd recommend stopping expressing if I were you. Unless you can get enough for every feed. I'm convinced that, with my first dd, trying to do both breast and formula when I ran into problems with breastfeeding caused her to have an upset tummy which led to crying. Focus on getting a routine established and try and sleep when he sleeps. If you need to hold him, then do so.

Phoenix76 Sat 28-Jan-17 23:15:30

Nothing I have read in your op is "failing massively", what I read is "normal massively"! If you've managed to get any milk out with one of those crappy Tommee Tippee manual pumps you're a hero, I tried and tried with that flaming thing it almost got launched into space, and my God did my wrists hurt. I understand completely you wanting to express and if you want to do, if it's more trouble than it's worth than don't. If you do, I did btw, it is worth getting some kit that will make it easier. If you can afford it, or some places will loan cheap, get a hospital grade electric pump on loan. I hired a medela at £40/ month. I agree with mainlywingingit those are great tips. Also, Kellymoms is great for bf advice. Please don't be hard on yourself, these first months will test you to the max and you really are, despite how you feel, doing fantastic. We've all spent those weeks in tears convinced we're failing but that's hormones and tiredness talking not fact. It does get easier and believe it or not, you'll probably look back on these days with fond memories. Keep talking about how you're feeling and know you're not alone and are very normal! X

amysmummy12345 Sat 28-Jan-17 23:22:56

flowers the only thing I can say is that it gets easier until they turn into a three year old tantrum throwing devil child

The way I rationalised was by imagining being nicely tucked up in bed in the dark, all snuggly warm, then all of a sudden someone comes and tips you out into a cold, bright noisy room, I'd be crying too for a while! Plenty of skin to skin, cuddles, set up camp on the sofa or in bed with plenty of drinks/snacks and let people wait on you for a while if they're about!

PeachBellini123 Sun 29-Jan-17 05:09:12

I had to check I hadn't written sound like me! Down to the flat nipples which I have as well.

Honestly you sound like you are doing brilliantly. My DS is 3 weeks old - these first weeks have been a massive learning curve. I still have down moments but it does get easier. We can read DS better now. I.e we knew the signs he was constipated earlier.

You are doing great. Hang in there.

Mol1628 Sun 29-Jan-17 05:56:25

Everyone feels like this. And it's normal to feel like everyone else can cope but you. People only share the good bits and lovely photos, a lot of people are scared to admit that having a newborn is rather shit.

It'll be fine. Just do the minimum to get through the day.

OldBooks Sun 29-Jan-17 06:08:25

It is so so hard. Google "4th trimester". Surrender to the idea that your job now is cuddling and feeding the baby. Don't worry about anything else. Stay in bed all day. Get a pod cushion (I had the PurFlo Nest) which makes their crib feel less big and scary and also means you can safely lay them beside you on the bed so at least you are lying down.

OldBooks Sun 29-Jan-17 06:14:43

Posted too soon...

Was also going to say that expressing is hard. I had so much milk (huge engorged breasts, waking up in a puddle of leaked milk) and I could hardly get anything even with an electric pump. There is just some hormonal/emotional aspect missing. Try not to get hung up on BF - my DD wasn't thriving and I agonised for days about giving up BF but when I caved both DD and I were so much happier.

Also while I agree with PP that the way you feel is normal, if it doesn't go away please talk to your GP or HV about PND

Mysterycat23 Sun 29-Jan-17 06:30:31

6 day old PFB here!! Watching you tube videos of baby facial expressions and what they can mean has helped me massively to better see what he wants before he starts full on screaming for it. That was the starting point and now I'm learning what other little sounds faces and gestures he makes to communicate beyond the classic ones. I think nct have a link to vids?

PurpleBun Sun 29-Jan-17 06:35:30

Firstly, congratulations!

Another vote here for "massively normal"! My DS is 5 months now, and we've come such a long way since those first few weeks.

Like you, I have flat nipples and found breastfeeding so difficult. My nipples ended up a mess and were so painful (lasinoh is fantastic).

I tried a MAM hand pump and it was worse than useless - my boob hurt, my hand hurt, and I had no milk to show at the end of it. My DP did lots of reading around it - the flat nipples make it harder to express comfortably, and different brands have success for different women. I found that a Tommee Tippee electric pump works well for me.

I sobbed at times, convinced that I was an awful mother, terrified I would never get more than 30 minutes sleep at a time. Thankfully my DP was amazingly supportive and helped both my DS and me. I can't count the number of times I sat crying with DS when trying to feed, and how many times DP would sit with me and talk through everything.

Luckily my milk supply kicked in, I finally found a position that DS would feed in (for quite a while it took both DP & I to get DS to latch - DP's never touched my boob so often!), and DS settled down for feeding.

Until we got to that point though, there were a few times we topped up a feed with formula, and there were numerous times DP & I discussed going to pure FF.

I feel your pain OP (as I think all new mothers do!). And I definitely agree with a PP about biscuits next to your bed - lifesavers!

Best of luck with it all cakeflowers

Mysterycat23 Sun 29-Jan-17 06:36:54

It's called newborn cues

Mysterycat23 Sun 29-Jan-17 06:37:39

Nct does not have a link the buggers grin

876TaylorMade Sun 29-Jan-17 06:50:11

There is no right or wrong...

All babies are different, while books are a good insight nothing prepares you for YOUR baby. All advice should be taken with a pinch of salt.

I think most mothers will tell you they fumbled through the first year ... you are doing just fine.

At this age... as PP have said its more about cuddles... feeding, winding, and nappies.

If you need a break let your DP look after him while he sleeps and run yourself a nice bath... I used to take half hour in the shower to relax... washed my hair and shaved my legs. I'd also do morning feeds and have coffee in bed while DH looked after our DD. Try to see if you can find at least 10 mins to regroup each day , it helped me massively as DD was on the breast every hour and it all seemed unrelenting, but it does get easier.


amysmummy12345 Sun 29-Jan-17 08:26:59

Just been on google as i'd never heard of flat nipples, only inverted ones. They're seems to be lord of tips about breastfeeding with them though, such as hand expressing some out before feeds so that the boob isn't so engorged when baby goes to latch, hope some of these help?

OldBooks Sun 29-Jan-17 20:24:00

How are you doing OP? Hope today was a bit easier

Mama2708 Sun 29-Jan-17 23:16:08

This is so normal and you are so not alone

This will pass eventually and I promise you that you will find your own routine that suits your little family, things absolutely do get better. Every baby is totally different and for me it was just trial and error until we found what worked for us.

The first week or so I was literally full of adrenaline and hormones and then motherhood hit me like a brick.
I had so much love for my little tiny baby but I literally spent most of my time sweating, crying, eating or just generally bumbling through the day 😂😂😂 Oh and throw in loads of visits from people you hate whilst you sit there on auto pilot, probably still dressed in a dressing gown covered in baby sick, wishing they'd just leave you to be a tired mess in peace.

There's always someone you know who's got the perfect baby and seems to have their sh#t together but I assure you, we all have those days where we want to die from tiredness and I bet most of the mamas on here have felt like you do.

You are doing a great job, each day is an achievement and another step closer to finding the right routine for you all.

Enjoy these early days as they go so quick, hang in there mama


amysmummy12345 Mon 30-Jan-17 09:19:44

mama the sweating! I'd forgotten the sweating!!

Mama2708 Mon 30-Jan-17 10:05:15

@amysmummy12345 😂😂 honestly I thought It'd never stop. It must be a hormone thing!!

gosh123 Mon 30-Jan-17 10:09:40

You will be fine. It's so normal to be feeling how you are..
I was the same and I cried and cried the first 2 weeks.. Felt so overwhelmed by it all..
But 10 months later were both still here and happy, we survived and you will too.. It's just time.. Get as much help and sleep as you possibly can that's so important..
And remember your not alone xx

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