Just don't no what to do anymore

[Thisismethisisyou]

IM PROBABLY GOING TO GET A LOT OF NEGATIVE COMMENTS FOR THIS ... But im so done done with being a mum done with everything. Im at my wits end im a single mum to 2 kids its a struggle having 2 kids a job and a house. I just feel like i cant do it anymore! I just want to go and dig myself a hole and lie it forever. All my kids do is whine whine whine from the moment we wake to moment we sleep. They don't appreciate anything they moan when we are out etc. Not only that i work come home and feels like im at work again with the kids. Now i no its my own fault for opening my legs blah blah blah im just done i cant hack this life anymore if i had a adoption paper in front of me right now id probably sign it i no i shouldn't feel like this but i do! And I've felt like this for a good 3 years now! Please tell me im not alone :(

[Beansprout30]

Sounds like you really need a break. I'm sorry I don't know what to advise but big respect to you for doing this alone. Any friends it family that could help you out a bit either round the house or take the kids so you can have a break?

[Writerwannabe83]

Sorry you're having such a hard time

How old are your children? What's the situation regarding how much they see their father?

[Thisismethisisyou]

There 5 and 6. There dad isn't involved haven't been since they were born. I don't really have family only my mum dad and sister but my mum works fulltime i work with my dad and my sister has 4 kids herself so i never really ask for them to sit them as i no there probably as drained as me :( o have a partner who does help with kids but he stays 2 nights a week due to work etc. When we he is here i don't really get to spend time together after getting kids to bed etc its gone 8 9pm. I dred even doing the little things like shopping i just stand it no more its 8.08 am right now and my son is sat winging as i type

[Writerwannabe83]

It sounds really tough. How long have you felt like this? What is it they whinge about?

[Thisismethisisyou]

I felt like this around 3 years now :( he was winging over a plate kids will be kids but I've just had enough all i do is yell 24/7 i cant wait to get out the door in the morning because i no there going to school come time to pick them up i just feel like leaving them there and not turning up i literally don't enjoy anything anymore my mum is watching all 6 of our kids on Saturday so we can go Christmas shopping and i just don't wanna go. I don't want to buy anything i just cant be bothered. I just don't no what is wrong with me but i think its time for me to see a doctor because i was never like this b4 3 years ago :(

[DiegeticMuch]

You need to see your GP. I'm so sorry you're feeling like this - but there is help out there for you.

How are things money-wise? Could you afford to pay a local teen to babysit one evening per week so that you and your partner could go to the cinema or for a pint?

If anyone mentions "legs closed" to you in real life, tell them to be quiet. Or something less polite!