feeling utterly devastated

[blackcloudabove]

The children's father left 2 months ago and I've cried everyday since! I feel like I've failed my children. I have no patience, I'm
Not fun, I've pushed everyone away! I'm also nearly 34 weeks pregnant and on bipolar medication. I just don't see how I'm ever Guna get over this! I can't! Although I want to hate him for being a selfish idiot! I can't I'm just utterly devastated! I'm under consultant care for the pregnancy but at my last appt he asked how I was and I said I'm really stressed and he shrugged as in yeah that's expected with pregnancy. I went to see my psychiatrist and he said you have 3 kids at your age on your own... What are you Guna do!!!
I have a counsellor who is brilliant.
There's no more help I can reach out for!
I am no good for my children right now. That sounds pathetic I know but I'm really not l! I can't even just put on a brave face! They've seen me cry far too much. Their behaviour and attitudes have become so bad and I don't blame them!

[bramblina]

Oh dear what family do you have? Close friends?

[blackcloudabove]

My mum has the kids whenever for appointments and things but we are not close emotionally. My best friend lives 3 hours away. And I have 2 other friends here but they are fed up of hearing stuff. Everyone around me hates him so I've learnt just not to talk to anyone about it.

[Writerwannabe83]

How old are your other children and what role does their dad okay in their life? Could he have them at his more often just to give you some respite? I hope he plans on being a good support for you when the new baby arrives. I'm sorry you're going through this