So ashamed after today

[SweetieXPie]

I have had one of those horrible days.
I have had sciatica (which is no excuse) for weeks, will book in with the GP tomorrow. I haven't slept properly becomes of this, so have been short tempered.
My DH works long hours, we set up a company a few years back, this brings its own set of financial issues. We don't have a 'monthly income' as such, once we have invoices paid we can pay money into our accounts. I am currently trying to extend our business overdraft as it is too small for the incoming and outgoings we have.
This has all got on top of me recently, trying to entertain three DCs, seven and under through the holidays with hardly any money (we were delayed on some invoices being paid) I absolutely lost it this morning, huge row with DH, literally had a tantrum like a toddler, threw clothes everywhere, had a melt down on the bathroom floor and ended up walking out of the house, leaving the kids with my DH, went for a walk to clear my head, I feel so guilty, this was al in full view of the children

[StealthPolarBear]

Well I thonk you might be on the naughty step for a while :)
Sounds like you're under a lot of stress. Are you and dh on good terms again? Might be worth talking to the dc about it and showing them how a grown up acts after a tantrum :) We've all done things we're ashamed of in front of the dc.

[Casmama]

Ok so not ideal but really, I'm sure your kids will understand that sometimes everyone has trouble controlling their emotions so you do what you would get them to do and apologise.
It sounds like you are having a really tough time so cut yourself some slack- we all chuck a wobbly from time to time and often with far less of a reason than you 😃

[SweetieXPie]

Thank you for your kind messages.
DH and I did sort things, in fairness he is very good, he gets that it is hard having the kids on my own all the time. We sat down with the children, I apologised and explained that DH and I were very tired and busy with work at the moment but it was no excuse for me losing it and assured them that we still loved each other and them.
My DH took the children to the park for a few hours this afternoon to let me rest.
I grew up watching horrific arguments as a child and swore I would never argue in front of my kids albeit we don't argue all the time and my parents had a horrendous relationship with lots of alcohol issues, which we don't have.