I feel as though I'm going to explode with rage. I'm a terrible mum, a terrible girlfriend just a bad person in general really. I feel so worthless and I'm sure my little boy would be better off without me as his mummy.
I love him so much he's the best part of my life but at times he's also the hardest. He's 22 months old and starting to have tantrums about absolutely everything he hits, kicks, pinches and sometimes bites and I'm finding it really hard. I've always had a bit of a temper but it's got worse and I lose it with him sometimes I shout so loud it frightens him to tears and then I feel awful.
I'm currently living with the in laws as we are saving to buy our own house. It's a real struggle for me as I don't feel very liked by my partners family so it's uncomfortable. I'm excluded from things that everyone else is involved in and this causes issues between my partner and I because he's stuck in the middle so we're arguing as well. I feel like they judge me as a parent and tell me when they think I'm doing something wrong which I don't think is their place. This is just another thing to add to the list of shit things in my life. I feel as though I'm struggling to breathe an can't come up for air I feel so stressed all of the time I don't feel happy.
I don't talk to anyone about any of this I keep it all in but it's getting harder I feel like I'm going to just snap one day. I'm thinking I need some help but I've gone to the doctor in the past and didn't really get any support I was just made to feel like It was because I was a new mum but a year on I don't feel any better. What can I do? I can't carry on like this.
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bellerous · 29/10/2015 13:25
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