did anyone feel guilty for your 1st child after having your 2nd?(20 Posts)
My DC2 is due soon and it's just occurring to me that I might feel like this. Do you know many families with more than 1 DC? Look at how they all
probably love each other equally and for different reasons. That said, if you're frequently feeling so down about it and especially as you're parenting solo, is it worth talking to a gp about the possibility of PND?
I did a bit at first but it's easier now DS2 is bigger and they are interacting together. They are so nice to watch playing and we feel like a team now
It was the opposite for me. DC1 was always so demanding while DC2 was very quiet so I always felt a bit like I was neglecting DC2.
I can see why you feel as you do though in your situation but try not to worry you DS1 may have already forgotten there was a time without DS2 - if not he will after a while.
Yes, I also cried when when I looked at ds2 because I felt guilty that he would never get the same time and attention that Ds1 got. So it was a double whammy for me.
I don't remember at what point in stopped feeling like that though,
I was the same. myself and DS were a team, just as you describe. it was me and him against the world. and in his short life he has been tthrough hell and back and come out the other side a confident happy, loving 6 yo.
when DD came along 18 months ago, I felt awful, like I was pushing him away but when she got older, started toddling and became more involved she has joined our little team. I am expecting even more guilt when DS2 comes along next month as I will then feel like I'm pushing them out and feel bad that DD hasn't had the same 1 on 1 that DS did. but it will pass, and then he will join our team too and it will be us four against the world
Dc2 is due in 2 weeks and I'm so worried about this. DD is only 19 months and I'm really worried she's going to feel pushed out/neglected. I've been a SAHM since she was born so she's had my undivided attention all that time.
honestly, I think the guilt won't be as bad with a smaller gap, as they won't know any different as they grow. I think I only felt so bad for DS because he had me to himself for 5 years. I console myself with the fact it was him who asked Santa for a baby sister (and got her a week before Christmas) and him who decided a brother would be good too! (someone is definitely listening to what he wants!)
I have to say for me I was excited and happy for my dd1 to have a new sibling, someone to play with and a companion for life. It was a great source of happiness that we shared the birth of dd2.
Glasshouse nothing will change that special bond you have with ds1 (I have the same with my firstborn) but you will not be here forever, and it is good for him to have a special bond with his brothers/sisters and have support and love beyond the years that you will be here/in good health. Once your little one has grown a little, your ds1 and ds2 will love playing together, so many happy days await you as they grow up together. Believe me they can play far better games than you! I can not believe some days listening to my children the wonderful world of play they have created between them. I am afraid it is a world difficult to access as an adult, but one they will cherish. A new sibling is gift rather than something 'taken away' and your best years are yet to come.
I felt horribly guilty, like I'd stolen dds 'babyhood' she was about 6 months old when I fell pregnant with twins and there are only 14 months between her and her brothers.
A one year old should never have to be the 'big child'. People kept saying I'd have to train her to help etc - she was only a baby herself.
What I found was that, as in most situations, you just have to get on with it and as they've all got older they've become friends and playmates, another baby now (they're almost 7 and almost 6) would upset the balance far more.
Yeah I think that's how I feel Cornelious, like I'm stealing her babyhood and will be forcing her to grow up too quickly. Like fatty and glass say though, with a smaller age gap it won't be long before they don't know any different!
I remember DS1 coming home after we brought DS2 home form the hospital and he had grown up overnight - chanced from my baby into a hulking 2 year old. I remember thinking "what have we done?!"
Then DS2 got older and I decided he was one of the best gifts we could have given DS1.
Then they both hit their teens, a sister arrived and grew up and I wondered if my initial instincts had been correct .
definitely normal and they do bond and you realise that it's ok to love them both and that they actually enjoy having another child around
Absolutely normal IMO. I think everyone I know has had that "oh!" moment followed by doubts and in every single case it has worn off when they realise they've gained far more than they lost.
As to whether they bond - no one can really tell you this. Once the younger sibling stops being a smelly, screaming ball of annoyance that does nothing they can start to play and start building a relationship. Until that happens, in the eyes of a 4 year old, a baby is somewhat cute but basically fairly dull and they'd probably far rather have a puppy
I felt guilty for DC1 when DC2 came along, I used to look at a photo of her while I was feeding and just cry. All those hormonal tears that come after giving birth were for my DD. it didn't last though because I was giving her a far greater gift in having a sibling, and that is what you have done for your son.
Sorry I know the thread is 2 days old but I just wanted to thank glasshouses for posting that beautiful first poem. It had me in floods of tears (I'm pregnant with DC2). Thank you also to heartofgold for your lovely post. I could cry all the time at how much Iove DS1 and am worried I don't have enough left for no.2 but you've reassured me. Thank you.
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