This is absolutely ridiculous, but I haven't yet managed to spend the night alone with my baby/toddler. He's now 16 months old (nearly 14 months corrected).
We didn't have a very good start as DS was born at 29 weeks and had to spend two months in NICU/SCBU. To cut a long story short, I suffered from severe anxiety and had a couple of panic attacks when we brought him home, partly due to some stopping-breathing-and-passing-out episodes he had while feeding. I was initially terrified of being alone with him during the day, but soldiered on with a bit of counselling and a very supportive DH.
Anyway, over a year down the line, I'm now fine during the day (albeit still a bit anxious, but nothing too bad), but I still can't face the thought of spending the night alone with DS, as I'm worried I'll have a panic attack when I'm the sole adult in charge. I have to have DH there, or else I go to my PILS, who are fantastic but live several hours away. It doesn't help that DS still often wakes up multiple times a night, so I'm typically pretty sleep-deprived. I'm a SAHM. We have no friends or family nearby who can help, as we recently moved.
I was just wondering if anyone had any tips, or suggestions. Has anyone had the same problem? I thought it would get better on its own, but it's not looking like it will.