DS has scarlet fever and this is the first illness he's ever been ill (he's 20mo), so I know we've been lucky. I was off work the last two days looking after him.
When I used to imagine being off with a poorly baby I used to think about how patient and caring and loving I'd be. In reality, they were the two most suffocating and boring days of my life as a mum so far I think, and it's made me feel really guilty.
Am sure you all know what it's like - I basically couldn't put him down for over 48 hrs. He wasn't all that ill (no temp, just bad rash), just tired and clingy and just ON ME ALL THE TIME, including all night, sleeping ON MY HEAD.
I feel terrible. I think I managed to be lovely to him but inside I wanted to shake him off and leave the house.
I think that being 8wks pg, exhausted, nauseous and generally feeling sorry for myself didn't help.
DS wouldn't go to DP at all, and rather than see this is an expression of how much I'm needed and loved by DS, and proof that when anyone is ill it's their mummy that they need, and ONLY their mummy, I just resented it :(
I think I just need some sleep and a break, but it was a bit of a shock not to feel like this Florence Nightingale figure I always thought I'd be.. :(
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flipflopsonfifthavenue · 28/03/2014 12:36
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