I posted about this back in July when my DS was 2 months; he's now nearly 5 and things haven't improved in the way I feel. :(
I'm suffering horrendously from sleep deprivation so that is compounding things I know, but I feel very ashamed and confused as to my feelings towards DS, when I felt overwhelming love with DC1 2 years ago.
I feel very angry with him sometimes (especially when he's not sleeping well), but a lot of the time I feel indifferent to him :( He can be crying and I often feel no emotional pull to pick him up or settle him. As I mentioned already, this is probably due to extreme tiredness but I feel very sad about it anyway.
I am better when out of the house, at groups or visiting people, I do feel more 'normal' in those situations, but perhaps because I know people would pick up on any strange behaviour.
I have good days and bad; good days I feel totally normal and happy and able to love him the same as DC1, bad days I want to throw him out of the window :( :((I actually have to restrain myself from being too rough with him)
I don't feel like he has much of a personality either at the moment, it's difficult to get excited about him in the way I did with DC1. Maybe this is just normal with subsequent DC?
I went to the GP last year as I was suffering badly from sleep deprivation that was being compounded by DC1's night-wakings, but an assessor didn't find any MH problems then, just extreme sleep dep. I don't know if what I'm feeling is significant enough to warrant another visit...I suppose I want to know if others have felt this way 5 months after having a DC and whether it's still within 'normal' boundaries.
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Still struggling to feel love for my baby
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Snozcumbers · 02/10/2012 10:26
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