Just not enjoying playing with kids

[littletinkers]

Hi I've been suffering from depression from a while and thought that playing with the kids would lift my spirits. In reality I just feel it is hard work and don't really enjoy it - well there are some things I enjoy more than others. Of course I love the kids to bits but I just don't seem to be able to create the happy fun atmosphere I want to when we are home alone together. I think maybe I am being a bit unrealistic - imaginging that I'd be some sort of mary poppins mother! Anyone got any tips for how to make the hard work more enjoyable without just doing things to please yourself?!