Not a journo - am semi-regular poster. Sorry if this has been done recently/done to death!
I guess it's a bit too late to be asking really as I am now a first-time mother to a six week old baby boy. It's all still bloody scary, and I can't help wondering why DH and I had children - this new baby stage I know will pass and get easier but then I look at what's to come and it just seems like one obstacle/miserable phase after another.
- Teething
- The screaming wilful toddler stage
- The very brief good bit - the "golden years" when they are cute and funny and still cuddly - 4-10
- The horror of the teenage years
- Then, after they get reasonably nice again, they piss off and leave you to start their own lives. I've got a boy - so one day his wife will take him and after 20 years of effort and upbringing I might get a couple of phone calls and a visit a month, which is how these things tend to go, even if you have a good relationship.
So what the hell is the point, and why do we all become parents? I would like to think that DH and I are intelligent and well-educated and that we have done it for a good reason, rather than just a) because we can't think of anything better to do, b) because I am a slave to my biological urges c) because I "need" someone to depend on me or d) because DH and I feel obligated to produce good future citizens for society. If none of these, then currently I have no idea what that reason actually was.
Ours is a good baby really, I don't 100% love him yet, but that will come. So I don't think I'm depressed. But I still can't get this question out of my mind, and would love to hear what you all think - however old your kids are. Is a baby's first smile, or a funny remark from your four year old, worth the 20 years of self-sacrifice and hard slog???? It doesn't seem a lot to get back when there's so much effort put in.