Oh, Rhubarb, i've just looked at the link. I'm so sorry - are you feeling as bad this time around? You haven't said yet how dh is taking this one - you said he really wanted to keep your dd.
I'm really sorry, I don't know what to say. Last night I was thinking about you again. I thought of suggesting you look at the positives of a 2nd child , rather than the pregnancy itself, after all there are plenty of women who don't enjoy pregnancy, and it can often be just plain hard work, but even though 9 months is a long time, it is just a temporary state.
I was worried how I would cope with a 2nd child, especially as mine are only 17 months apart, but for me I've found
-2 are definitely easier than 1. OK some thngs eg bedtime take a bit longer, but I have more 'free' time than friends who have only 1. They just prefer to play together and demand less from me.
-They have a confidant in each other. Even at this young age, they will often turn to each other for comfort, and I'm sure when they're older they'll be able to tell each other things they don't feel they could talk to me about.
-The way they look after each other eg at playgroup is totally heart warming.
-For the sake of being morbid, when I die, I know they won't be alone, I think that while parental death is never easy, it can be harder for only children.
-Most of all I think, their individual personalities bring so much to the family but also to each other. eg My older son is quite quiet and lacking in confidence, sensitive and obedient. My younger son is fearless, naughty, care free and full of joie de vivre. My younger son encourages my older one to be more outgoing and confident, he helps him try things he otherwise would shy away from. My older one tends to encourage his younger brother to be a bit less mad & a bit more cautious. They are very different and really complement each other. They encourage each other in a way that neither myself or my husband can do.
I'm sorry if this is really off of me. I haven't felt the panick or depression that you have felt, but I have had concerns about a 2nd child. Maybe, as on the other threads focussing of the positives of pregnancy isn't enough. Whatever, though I wish you all the best & will be thinking of you & your family.