My nan passed away yesterday.. she was 87. She lost her husband (my step grandad) in Feb which was a shock to us all especially her. She rang my mum to say she had a chest infection over the weekend.. rang again Monday to ask if she could come and stay as she didn't feel well so my dad went to get her n took her to the docs where she got antibiotics. He brought her home and she went to bed. Couple hours later he went up to go to the loo and saw her leg sticking out.. thinking she may have fallen asleep on the loo and didn't want to embarrass her he went back down stairs to wait for my mum who 5 mins later was home. She went up to check but she was gone. My dad rang me n my brother to go round as my mum was besides herself.. when we got there my nan was in the bed and it was a real shock to see her. We waited with my parents till gone 9pm when she was taken away. I was very very close to this nan.. I spent all my childhood holidays with her and adored her.. I have an autistic son who is very upset as he knows her and knows what's going on. I'm due my second child on Sunday. . All I keep thinking is how she will never meet my son or how I will never see her again.. I'm so low and depressed I just don't care about anything.. Im not even excited about my baby arriving anymore which I know is horrible. I'm hoping when he's here I will change. I suffer with anxiety/depression as it is and i'm worried I will hit rock bottom and i'm worried I can't love my child. I had post natal with my first son but that was due to being in a violent relationship with his dad. I miss her so much it hurts... I just hurt x
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