First C.B.T session in morning!

[EvesMama]

dont know what to expect?
had some other counselling years ago but this sounds different?
will she want me to spill everything? or will she just tell me ways of dealing with things?
realised today that i actually feel numb to feelings most of time..other than anger..am very uptight and not nice..just hope this works!
anyone been?

[Ledodgyherring]

I have been having CBT since january i've had about 6 sessions so far. At the first session they tend to ask you about your history so she can gain a full picure of your situation. In the next session she will read it back to you and go from there. I've found it to be really helpful, it's both a way to talk about issues and ways in which to handle your feelings, they tend to take your lead. I can't stress enough how valuable it has been to me. Good Luck hopefully like me you'll never look back!

[EvesMama]

so how do they 'teach' you to 'deal' with situations differently?
will i have to go over childhood stuff?

[Ledodgyherring]

Well I found that alot of my childhood stuff seemed to be rellevant even though I didn't mean to talk about it things came out of me from nowhere. it's like that , you always go thinking you won't have anything to talk about for an hour but you do, they don't make you do or say anything but they have a way of making you open up without you actually realising how they did it lol. They help you change your patterns of behaviour by giving you alternative ways of coping/acting/thinking. Honestly give it a chance it does work but you won't understand how! That's what I found anyay. Put it this way In january i could barely leave the house without having a panic attack and now I can. I've even been on a few nights out since as well, I feel free again, I still have anger management issues to deal with too and we're working on this at the moment.

[EvesMama]

i just worry ill blather on about my bad childhood and she'll get bored(i know she wont, but you know what i mean)
im really such a horrible person right now and have just admitted to myself that i dont feel like ive properly bonded with dd..i shout at her if she wants me to play while im tidying/packing/on ebay selling/getting my messages...i dont do enough with her, i dont have much time as were moving in less than twon weeks, but the time i do have i waste and then i feel guilty, for not doing enough stuff and ..hang on, this is for tomorrow.sorry

[Ledodgyherring]

Evesmama I feel like I don't spend enough time with my dd either (she's called Eve too are you me?) Good luck with the move, moing is extremley stressful so give yourself a break.

[Ledodgyherring]

that should have said MOVING is stressful lol not Moing!

[EvesMama]

yeah i dont have any problem mooing, cos im such a cow!
ive been 'less foggy' today, had a little more patience and it shows in dd, but i have to reallyu try to be like thins, nothing comes naturally for me, everything seems like such and effort?!

[Ledodgyherring]

I'm the same I hate myself sometimes for the way i snap at dd I really feel I need to play more with her and do stuff with her but like you I feel it doesn't always come naturally. I have a ds who's 6 months too which does make it harder. My own mother (who died a few years ago) wasn't particulary good in the maternal stakes and was very angry herself alot of the time one of the reasons im having cbt is to break this pattern.

[plummymummy]

In CBT the therapy is solution focused. It gets you to identify the problem yourself and then work out how to change things in order to solve it. The idea is that as attitudes change, so does behaviour.

[EvesMama]

had introduction meeting..got upset and now to make matters worse, i will prob have to go on a different waiting list because we're moving out of their area..really thought i might be getting somewhre
she has invited me to a group session next wednesday though, so will have to see(really difficult with no help with dd and shes on school hol for two weeks after fri)