DH and I have DS who is nearly five.
We always thought we would have another but we both found the adjustment to parenthood difficult. Looking back, think I was depressed TBH. Two years past, then three and here we are at four and a bit years and we still haven't gone for number two.
We love DS so much (even though he has a few "issues" and can be very demanding and challenging). Life is pretty good in lots of ways and we are a great little family unit.
However, there is a little voice in my head that won't go away. I can't seem to close the door on having another baby. It's as if because I always thought I would have another and the intention was always there, my brain won't accept that it's not happening IYSWIM.
In my heart of hearts I would like to have another and have always seen myself with a daughter (no guarantees obviously). I always look at families of four and wonder how it feels. I just feel as if I would be more complete somehow.
Obviously, time is not on my side and the age gap with DS would be quite big so not great for him in terms of having a playmate.
The stupid thing is, I don't even like the baby/toddler stage. Found it incredibly hard and dull. In moments of head banging frustration (which all parents have I know), I've even thought parenthood is totally overrated. I'm just not sure if I could go through it again-think I would go insane.
I was even thinking should I adopt. There are so many older children out there who need a loving home (DH wouldn't consider it though).
All these thoughts go round and round in my end. I have talked it through with friends but I just can't seem to take the "plunge" as it were!
Has anyone ever felt like this and had another or not and regretted it? Or have two with a big age gap?
Can anyone help me make sense of this? Or even better-tell me what to do because I am incapable of doing anything. I feel like I am frozen and can't say "no, that part of my life is over" or "yes, let's try for another".
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rivadiva · 14/01/2009 18:56
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