Hi everyone,
I need to get something out, and if anyone has any thoughts, I'd love to hear them.
Some context: My parents had me late - my mother had 2 children from her first marriage, my father had none. They were in their 40s. I was an unplanned surprise, and with a 15 year gap between me and my half-siblings, I was raised as an only.
My parents divorced when I was 14. My father is a very difficult man and we have a fraught relationship. My half siblings have nothing to do with him, so it's just me. He is financially unstable, emotionally manipulative and I find him very challenging. I have often said I wished I had siblings to 'share' him with.
I am close with my half siblings, but their children are older and they do not live nearby.
Now, aged 34, I have one DD aged 3. I have a wonderful DH and I love my family, but I never wanted DD to be an only, based on my experience as an adult only with my own father.
This year, I've had one miscarriage at 13 weeks and more recently a termination for medical reasons after our son was diagnosed with Patau Syndrome and given a prognosis of 3 days. We are currently having genetic counselling.
DH feels the emotional turmoil is too much to risk trying again, and I don't feel that adoption is the right choice for our family, but I am panic stricken about DD being an only. I'm probably being disproportionate about it, but feel completely trapped and like there is no action I take to make this better.
We are engaged and loving parents, with the emotional and practical resources to give her an objectively brilliant childhood, and know we can take practical steps to protect her from some of the financial and organisational burden I feel regarding my Dad, but emotionally, I cannot bear the thought of her being alone as an adult.
How do I process this?
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AtLeast · 12/04/2021 11:32
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