At 18 weeks 2 days I miscarried my 1st darling baby on 30th December at 01:43 after 46 hours of labour. We called him Theo and he was perfect. As I was only 18 weeks, it is classed as a miscarriage instead of a still birth even though he was fully developed, just very very tiny. He only weighed 210g.
I've found myself struggling very badly with even the most mundane of tasks such as ironing or washing up and I'm struggling to cope. I can hardly sleep because when I do I'm overwhelmed with a sense of guilt and sadness. I miscarried as I went into early labour as my cervix has a weak wall which caused me to lose my mucas plug and waters. Because of this I feel an almost crippling guilt and sense that it was my fault - it's my cervix that is weak. My partner is unbelievably supportive but even he can't pull me out of this hole.
My baby Theo can never ever be replaced, but I am very keen to get pregnant again. I know I need to give me body time to heal, but I'm worried about my fertility. I've read that fertility is higher just after a miscarriage? If this is true then I don't want to miss the opportunity.
I have Polcystic Ovaries and haven't had a period in around 10 months - that's why we were so surprised and over the moon when I fell pregnant!!
If there are any women out their who have lost their baby and have any information or experience on post-miscarriage fertility, please contact to me. I would love to know that I'm really not alone in this.