My DD twins are now 6 weeks old. They were born at 33 weeks as one of the babies wasn’t growing properly.
I had always planned on a C Section but ended up having an urgent section. It all happened so quickly I didn’t have time to take it all in.
Our DD’s were born & were whisked away 10 seconds later to NICU. Due to me having the section I didn’t see them for another 7-8 hours.
They remained in hospital for 3 weeks before we were discharged. I’m having periods of being emotional about not having contact with them straight away and having “that” huge surge of love that I was expecting to have. I was stuck on a labour ward for 3 days surrounded by mothers who had their babies. I had to sit there in hell on my own until my DH returned to the hospital to take me up the 2 floors to where my girls were. Then when I did see them I had to ask for permission to touch them. All the things that I should have been doing for my babies a nurse was doing instead.
I realise that we were luckier than a lot of people in that we were home after 3 weeks but I have this overwhelming feeling or sadness that I didn’t bond with my babies straight away. Of course I do love my girls but I sometimes wonder if they know I’m their mum given how many different people were looking after them at first.
I’ve been feeling so good for the last few weeks but have been feeling very emotional in the last few days. I was looking back at pictures when they were first born, to my surprise when I look back at pictures of them in the incubators I got very distressed and couldn’t look anymore.
Can anyone give me any advice on moving on from these feelings?
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didihearthatright123456 · 19/05/2019 20:30
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