I have 2 month old twins, plus a three yr old. DH is at work all day and no family near by , so I spend all day trying to survive. T1 has colic and seems to scream morning till night. Threenager is demand demand demand all the time. T2 is a lovely, gentle soul who is always waiting for attention whilst I deal with the rowdy ones, so I constantly feel guilty about that.
Twin boys turned 1 recently. Eldest just turned 4.
It’s SLIGHTLY easier now. The twins are on solids, and sleep well. The eldest is a bit more independent.
It’s still shockingly exhausting though, even if the nights are better. The twins are mobile. With no common sense. I spend all day just hovering between them, awaiting the next narrowly-avoided accident. While hoping the 4 year old isn’t mocking food or scribbling on the walls or whatever.
People say “don’t wish their lives away!” whenever I talk about how difficult the last year has been. F**k those people. I can’t wait until they’re all around 10 or so. These early years, with 3 tiny kids, suck.
I promise you it does get easier. My twins were born when my son was 2 and a half - both girls had colic. They are now 8 and their brother is 10. Just try and take each day as it comes. Do you have any friends that can help? I used to go to a regular toddler group from when my son was a baby and the friends that I made there were a life saver when I'd had the twins
Sorry this is just to whinge 
