First MMC today

[waspylady]

And I'm feeling sad and lonely.

I know it's only a first one and it's really commmon etc but I had really started to imagine my life with my baby.

Would have been due April, had early scan today (7+5) and there was an empty sac

Need to wait for mc to start now...am off to stay with in-laws for a week starting on Thurs, they don't know....

[PorridgeBrain]

Hi waspylady

So sorry to hear of your loss. I had my first MC 3 weeks ago (5 weeks) and would also have been due April. Its a strange feeling, I go from being fine and positive one minute to being down the next. I'm waiting for my AF, hoping its sooner rather than later so I can start again, the last few weeks have dragged so slowly.

Its really hard not to think of life with your baby when you get tat BFP, after all its what you wanted and you'd achieved the important step.

Look after yourself and don't hide your feelings from others, esp. your OH. Its important you both talk about it.

[fifisboys]

So sorry wasplady..i know what your going through..
I went for an early scan last wednseday after spotting and my sac was measuring fine for my dates but the embryo only measured 5 weeks and no hb...i was sent home and told to expect to bleed. I started bleeding properly on the thursday afternoon and i think i lost everything then..i bled heavy on the friday and it has stopped now.
Its an awful place to be and i have gone through every emotion possible i think over the last week..if you need to 'talk' im here to listen

[Mung]

So sorry to hear your news waspylady. I presume you have opted for the natural miscarriage and that the hospital gave you all the options. You may not feel totally up to visiting family, so go with what you feel is right for you at the moment.

Its not a nice place to be at the moment and the wait can be very difficult, so look after yourself and keep talking to people about how you are feeling.

[waspylady]

Thank you PorridgeBrain fifiboys and Mung

I haven't been to hospital as paid for an early private scan because due to stay with in-laws for a week and would've had to tell them due to lack of drinking.

So glad that we didn't tell them now, that would have been so much worse........

The consultant said that the natural mc should start within a week so am going to wait for that as will be away in France from Thurs. But will see dr when i get home if nothing has happened by then.

I just want my boobs to go back down and for the mc to happen so that I can move on.

Feel in limbo now.....

[fifisboys]

I know what you mean when you say that..i just wanted it over with so that i can try and build on the future..its a horrible feeling though knowing what your going to go through. Try and take it easy especially if your going away. I had quite a bit of pain with mine and had to take painkillers/hotwater bottle on tummy etc so dont do anything that you dont feel ready too.
I went away on saturday with dp for the weekend without the kids just for a break and it did me the world of good, but then when we came home last night it was back to reality and the emotions all came back.
Try not to be too hard on yourself, you will feel in limbo for a while i think
x

[waspylady]

thanks fifiboys
I woke up at 4am feeling really sad and angry and couldn't get back to sleep. I am going to see if I can see my dr today to maybe speed things up a bit.

I am just glad I had the scan before we went so we hadn't told them the news.

I am feeling quite shaky but I guess the news hasn't properly sunk in yet.......I guess I'll just concentrate on packing and eating chocolate today.

[PolarBear74]

Focus on the chocolate eating - that definately helps!

Sorry for your loss and I hope that you manage to get everything sorted and that the GP can help. EPU can help too, they were really kind and helpful when I had my MC.

[waspylady]

Thanks PolarBear

The dr said I should wait and let the mc happen in it's own time esp as I'm off to France tomorrow......the waiting is very difficult.

I think I've feeling a bit numb right now, I guess I just have to wait for time to pass, to feel a bit better and then to start ttc again.

[Mouette]

Big hugs waspylady. It's a difficult, painful time, but you will get through it. Give yourself time to grieve and recover. And if something happens whilst you're in France, don't worry, French hospitals are very good.xx