I am so sorry to see so many posts on this board.
This week has been a particularly sad one for me. I miscarried twins at six weeks. They were concieved posthumously as my Dh died of cancer a few years ago. This loss is infinately worse though. I already have my DD and I feel judged for having the audacicty to want another child in my situation. When my Dh died, I could say goodbye along with family and friends at his celebrqation service. Now, there is no goodbye, no cards to say how sorry people are, no one asking how I am feeling and how I'm coping.
The truth is I am bereft and the one person who could really comfort me in this isn't even here to do so. When I got my BFP, I felt like after five years I could finally look forward to the future and to being a whole family again (although my Dh will always be missed). The deep yearning in me to have another child, to complete our family has grown ever since my DD was born and even now I just can't shake it. The dream of having these lovely little darlings in my life has been most cruely shattered and once again I'm back in the blackness of grief. Sorry for unburdening like this but I've got nowhere else to share this stuff.
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Izabella · 19/10/2008 21:56
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