Hi just got an email to say that the last person in a baby group I have known for years (since ds was born) is now pregnant with their second child and due in March (as I was) I literally can't face seeing them anymore, they are all pregnant, and their babies are all younger than mine by up to a year, not that this matters much I suppose, I think it could tip me over the edge being around everybody pregnant at once so I sent an email to one of them saying that I couldn't see them for a while. I know this will not look good and go down badly and I have surely now lost their friendship for good (I am the only one who works f/t anyway, so haven't really been part of things for a while) I shouldn't really have said anything at all but I suppose I just wanted to explain why I was crying off events and meetings that I could make, e.g. in the evenings and school holidays. When will these shitty feelings leave me? I am SO genuinely happy for all of them but feel so crap myself. How can I feel better and stop being such a crap friend? Please help/advise, please!!
i am 100% certain that if those women are good people worth knowing then they will completely understand your desire to take a step back for now. i'm sorry to hear that you lost your wee baby, it's terribly upsetting, i know.