Grief during early miscarriage

[Rainbowbabywillcome]

Hi,

I found out I was pregnant in early January.

2 weeks after I had a day of brown spotting and my GP said not to worry it is very common.

4 weeks after positive test I had spotting again this time red and slightly more than before so I called EPU and booked in for a scan.

1st scan they couldn't see anything

2nd scan they saw a possible sac

3rd scan saw a confirmed sac but smaller than expected so they said maybe I had my dates wrong so we waited 2 weeks (in the 2 weeks experienced spotting on 6 of these days and a small bleed day before next scan)

4th scan showed the sac had grown ever so slightly but it should have been a lot bigger and the sac was the wrong shape. They found an empty sac and was told to expect a miscarriage.

I started bleeding the next day and going through a miscarriage now. I am finding that my emotions are all over the place. sometimes feel strong mostly feel heartbroken. I feel like I am grieving the loss of a baby but it didn't get to the stage of a baby. It's a strange feeling. I lost the baby before it to an embyro or before the embroyo got to a baby but in my head I already had a baby growing inside me as the body took so long to realise what had happened.

I hope I have made sense just wanted to get some feelings out helping it will help

[Tealchoc]

@Rainbowbabywillcome I’m so sorry you are going through this, it’s so awful. What you are feeling is perfectly normal. I had a mc at 6 weeks and like you felt heartbroken, I had made plans for this baby and thought of it 24/7. Just be kind to yourself in these early days afterwards and give yourself time to heal physically and mentally. X

[Rainbowbabywillcome]

[quote Tealchoc]@Rainbowbabywillcome I’m so sorry you are going through this, it’s so awful. What you are feeling is perfectly normal. I had a mc at 6 weeks and like you felt heartbroken, I had made plans for this baby and thought of it 24/7. Just be kind to yourself in these early days afterwards and give yourself time to heal physically and mentally. X[/quote]
@Tealchoc thank you, it really is tough. Sorry to hear you have been through the same too xx