2nd MC feeling emotionally numb

[valB16]

Recently found out I was pregnant only for it to end in a MC today. I had another MC 10 months ago and it's like 2 painful memories brought into one.

I feel so empty and sad inside but I put on a fake smile for the sake of not looking like I am sulking to everyone.

What's so hard about having a MC is not just accepting that your no longer pregnant but it's the feelings of pregnancy all lost. I still have sore boobs and other symptoms and the line down my belly but then I bleed and bleed and bleed and it's like a hard reminder YOUR NOT PREGNANT ANYMORE and it hurts a lot !!!

I have a great support system around me but they don't truly understand so I feel don't want to open up. I think of the future and loving and caring for another baby in my arms but I am so scared to go through everything again. It's like I have lost trust and it's so hard to rebuild again.

My feelings are so raw right now, I know in time it will be better but for now I just want to rant and cry and scream until I feel better.

Who else is feeling like this currently ?

[Lightsabre]

I didn't want to read and run but am sorry to hear you have had another miscarriage. Hopefully someone will be along soon who has experience of this. Take care of yourself.

[Stabal]

@valB16 I'm so so sorry. I feel your pain. It's been a month since mine and I think it's only hitting me now. The bleeding for me was really hard, every visit to the bathroom was a horrible gut punch of a reminder. People really don't understand it if they've not been through it, my supervisor kept asking why I had another hospital appointment.. It doesn't just happen and it's over and then you're back to normal. Be kind to yourself. Have you looked at some professional support services?

[Mysleepingangel]

Hi

I didn't want to read and run but I'm so sorry for your loss 😞 it's true that I've you've not been through a miscarriage, your never understand the pain it causes.

I highly recommend you contact Petals charity which helps parents who have lost babies. They are amazing.

Please be kind to yourself and give time to greif.

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