Hi everyone,
We lost our little one almost 2 weeks ago now, I had medical management on Monday and everything went as well as it could have done. I am still bleeding quite a bit and still have moderate-quite painful cramps sometimes in the day. I am due to return back to university on Tuesday. I am concerned about managing with pain but this is getting better so this isn't my main worry.
A select few of my friends at uni are aware of why has happened. My anxiety seems to be getting so much worse, it's a struggle to leave he house without DP. I feel so helpless, this is killing me as before all of this I was an outgoing person who wasn't really feared of much- it has made me feel like a shell of myself. I am really pleased of the progress I've made, I've channeled my grief into positive things such as starting up my old hobby of doing nails and drawing. I feel like I need to give myself some credit as I have been so terribly hard on myself lately.
Part of me feels like I should give it a few weeks before I go back as at the minute, if anyone talks about me I get a lump in my throat and cry. I am scared of appearing this way to people, I know I shouldn't care what people think but I do. I don't want them to see this new weakness in me, I don't want to look like I'm rolling in self pity. But another sort of me thinks that I should just get myself back into the game- possibly just go in for my lessons and avoid the conversation, because I don't want to become behind on my work. I am at a total loss for what do. I am totally doubting myself and my ability to get through this.
I just miss my little one, I'm struggling and I needed to get it out... if anyone has any advice on what they did in my situation or what they would do it's be greatly appreciated. Thanks so much xxx
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