Right so I’m new here.. been thinking for awhile about coming on here and well here I am at 1:30am🙈... I don’t even know where to start or if this is even relevant to this site.. so I have a LB with my OH he’s almost 4, for the last 3 years we have been trying for another child, we’ve had 3 early miscarriages and 1 chemical during this time. None the less I’m broken, it broke us, we separated for a little while last year but it was only a few months, since being back together we tried again and we just can’t conceive, it hurts so much and I fell so alone as my OH doesn’t seem bothered by what’s happened he just says “it will happen when it happens blah blah blah” everyone around me doesn’t seem to care either, I think because it’s happened over and over every one thinks I’m fine and I’m use to it the way they are! But I’m not I’m still crushed! I can remember every date of every F’ing one! Babies hurt me, Prams, cries, labour anything that resembles a baby or pregnancy crushes me inside but I don’t show it not anymore anyway, I’ve had the obvious tests etc and everything is normal apparently!.. anyway I’m now at a point where I just don’t care anymore I don’t care if I don’t get pregnant I know it sounds stupid but i just don’t care! But everything still hurts a lot! The slightest memory and I’m in tears! I just want to forget! I want to forget about wanting a baby but I don’t know how, I’m so sorry to anyone that’s read this and thinks they’ve wasted their time but it’s weighing on me so heavy recently, if anyone has been in my situation please do you know how to stop it? Stop the constant wanting for a baby? I don’t care about having one I just want to stop hurting and thinking about it, please :/ I’m so sorry for the long post x
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