This is my first time posting on here , just feel like I have no one to talk to. Basically I went for my 12wk scan July 30th and was told there was no heart beat. It had only stopped a few days before as I heard it on the Friday on my Doppler but couldn't find it from then on but didn't think anything of it as I was only 12wks.
I had a medically managed miscarriage and was admitted to hospital over night, my baby came out just after midnight august 1st, fully formed but so small.
So the issues I'm having is I'm constantly down and emotional I feel like I hate my partner as he was there when the baby came out and started freaking out so I didn't get to hold it or check the sex, I know he was shocked but because he started having a break down shouting get the nurse and put it down I just left my baby in the bed pan on the toilet. I regret this so much I contacted a local funeral home and had my baby buried but they were unable to let me see the baby as it'd already been over a week.
I'm having strange thoughts like maybe this happened because I don't really love my partner but then I'm thinking maybe I'm feeling this way because of my emotions and the trauma I've been through. People keep telling me everything happenes for a reason so was the reason because I'm not ment to be with him. My head is so messed up :(
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Loopylouboo · 11/08/2018 21:31
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