Hi all
I've just been through my 2nd miscarriage in 6 months.
I am beyond devastated and I feel so lonely. All of my friends have children already and so does my partner (from a previous relationship).
I absolutely adore my partners children but it breaks my heart even more when I see him interacting with them. He is wonderful and supportive and has been my absolute rock but it really is killing me to know he already has what I'm so desperate for with him.
I know it's my own head over thinking things and being ridiculous but I just feel so rubbish in myself. I've gone through so many feelings of just utterly despising myself as if I'm embarrassed that I don't seem to be able to do this one thing that should be natural to a woman. I just feel so ashamed of myself and inferior.
I know 2 is not a lot in comparison to what some people go through but my mother had around 7 miscarriages in total and even a still birth. I'd never allow myself to believe I could have the same trouble as her but I'm tearing myself apart thinking this is the start of it now.
It's brought up so many feelings of insecurity to do with my partner. Like my head is telling me he couldn't possibly love me as much as his ex because she's given him his children and I can't. (He in no way has fed this thought and he couldn't possibly do anything more to try and make me feel loved).
I feel like I'm losing my mind. I listen to the thoughts in my head and realise I sound like an absolute nut job but it just goes on over and over.
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Mangopr1 · 25/04/2018 13:53
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