So this is my first post, iv read about a million since i had my coil removed and this journey began.
Its a shame my first post comes under these circumstances.
I was lucky enough to fall pregnant on our first month ttc, but just over a week ago we found out that at 6w4d the baby hadn't developed, and that was why i had started bleeding, i was having a miscarriage.
Iv stopped bleeding now, about 9 days in total. Last week was misery and i feel slightly better this week, feeling i can function relatively ok.
Im just fed up and sad underneath it all.
Im so disappointed, iv never felt so disappointed before. I feel fed up of trying to be positive. Yes i can try again, but in reality i just want the baby i already made.
I feel a desperate need to try again and hopefully become pregnant again, i hate having this hanging over me and feel the whole experience of starting a family has been ruined.
I try to think how lucky i am with the normal cliches, that people dont stop telling you!
I do know so many women face tougher challenges and go through worse. To those women i dont know how you do it.
I just feel lonely, sad, frustrated and i guess a bit angry.
I should have been having an early scan Saturday followed by first midwife appointment next week. It makes feel sad that these wont happen now.
Every friday is a new week and i cant help think 'would have this many weeks this week'
In a month or so i could well be pregnant again, who knows, but everything feels muddled and strange and i guess tainted by this traumatic experience.
I guess i just wanted to hear from others and if you understood what i have said in anyway.
Xx
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Daffodils86 · 28/03/2018 22:18
Aw @Daffodils86 so sorry you are going through this. It really is the worst thing. I had a mmc identified on Valentine's Day (of all days) so I know how you are feeling.
One thing I've learnt is it is totally normal to feel all those feelings you described. My best friend is also pregnant and although I am so happy for her it's difficult to see her growing bump. Don't put too much pressure on yourself to feel normal and try and talk to people about how you feel: you'll be surprised at how many other woman have been through it.
There a great thread on her call TTC after miscarriage and when you feel ready I recommend taking a look as the support on their is amazing.
to you x
Sorry for your loss. 💖
I miscarried in November 14 with a very much wanted baby also. We waited one period then tried again.
I was similar to you I knew due date, how many weeks I would be and it was all I thought about-our loss- I think that's normal under the circumstances.
We fell pregnant almost right away. And I am so thankfull but it never takes the loss away. In time it does get less consuming but it is a long road.
Just remember to talk to the people around you.
And as soon as you feel emotionally ready you may wish to try again.
Good luck. Things are crap just now but stay strong it will get easier 
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