Finding things hard to accept.

[Hopeful2102]

For the first time in my life i feel defeated, I can't help but wish to feel something that would tell me my baby is back and everything is fine. I can't think about anything else, people talk to me and it's really not going in. I keep trying to wrap my head around why or when and i just can't. I feel so alone. I just want my baby back.

[ferntwist]

So sorry to hear how you're feeling Hope. I've been there and all I can say is it really does get easier. Time is such a good healer. Be kind to yourself and although you might not feel like it, do something nice for you every day. Have you got someone close to you that you can talk to?

[MUMOFANANGEL84]

You are not alone...I am dealing with the weeks around what would have been my due date right now and inside I feel so sad.take yourself away and give your self time.it is normal to feel abnormal. Big hug.L.xx

[Tessie22]

I miscarried today and keep involuntarily bursting into tears. I feel such grief for the baby I’ve lost. I’m hoping that with time I will be able to remember without it hurting so much.

[Disneyrules]

@tessie22 I'm so sorry for your loss. It's the worst. Wouldn't wish this pain on my worst enemy. I can safely say I have never ever felt this low in my life. I'm here if you need to talk x

[Tessie22]

Thankyou Disneyrules . My partner’s asleep & I’m not sure I could talk to him about how I feel anyway. I just feel so bereft . I’m also worrying about how to tell my 3yo daughter-just tonight she was talking to my tummy, and I want to get it right.

[Disneyrules]

Take your time lovely. Maybe have a look online to see if there are any suggestions on how best to tell your daughter. Don't be too hard on yourself and look after yourself xxx

[Bombardier25966]

I'm so sorry Tessie, and all that have been through loss, no one can understand the pain unless they've been there (and I wish no one else would ever have to).

My experience is that most people will avoid talking to you about it, I try to be completely open but have come across that look of horror a fair few times. But whatever others think, your feelings are entirely natural and entirely valid. We don't grieve for the past, we grieve for a loss of future, a loss of all those milestones we should see our children experience.

My baby would have been ten months now. A few weeks ago I named him, just to myself, it had felt odd before but now it feels right. I know others have named their babies far earlier, and that's fine, it's what helps you that counts. I saw a poster for a local miscarriage support group yesterday and burst into tears. It catches you at the most random moments.

Take care all, you're not alone xx

[TheNewbieStep]

Hopeful...

There are no words...as I lay here with a hot water bottle I can’t quite get my head around the last two weeks.

I have PCOS. TTC 1st baby for 18 months. Had a 21 day ovulation test with drs and I got the results that I had ovulated! What a celebration! Then on Monday I found out I was pregnant...what a few weeks!

Last night I started bleeding... and it hasn’t stopped. Laying here feeling utterly distraught.

[Disneyrules]

I'm so sorry @TheNewbieStep. You're not alone and there is always some one on here to talk to no matter the time. Sending you hugs, here if you need to talk xxx

[Daisy0789]

I'm so sorry for everyone's loss. It's the most awful thing. I had a miscarriage one month ago at 10 and a half weeks and feel dreadful. Can't seem to pull myself out of this depression. I hope everyone finds some peace soon xx

[TheNewbieStep]

Disney and Daisy, thank you for your lovely words. I’m new to mumsnet and your words have meant a lot; there is a lot of bad press about this media we call ‘social’ however a few words from you have made a lot of difference, they really have.

To the anonymous women who take the time to reply, I thank you x

[TheNewbieStep]

Daisy - here if you need a chat xxx happy to give my phone number x