Laparoscopy / Miscarriage

[blueelephant91]

Hi everyone
It's been a tough couple of weeks. Found out I was pregnant 5 weeks ago and was so happy with the news. 2 weeks after we started having complications and my hormone levels weren't going up as they should, I've been in and out of hospital. In the end I rushed in after lots of bleeding and they booked me an appointment with the consultant who did a scan. He then put me in for an emergency op I had a laparoscopy as I had lots of blood near my left ovary and they were worried it was ectopic, it turns out it was a miscarriage and they also found that I have endometriosis too.
I'm currently sitting at home recovering from my op and getting frustrated. The EPU have said I can be referred for counselling. I'm also thinking of getting a tattoo, when my partner and I found out we'd be seeing the consultant and it was probably miscarriage/ectopic we were outside and saw a dragonfly and it wouldn't leave us alone. We were outside for over 4 hours and it stayed around us the whole time. I'm not a believer of anything really but I truly believe it was our baby. Thinking of getting a dragonfly tattooed as it was quite significant.
I'm not sure why I'm posting really, just feel a bit lost, frustrated and upset. Not sure I've really processed the fact that I've had a miscarriage yet. Think I just need a chat with others.

[Babymamamama]

So sorry for your loss. Sounds like you should get something with a dragon fly on as it seems significant. I had a similar experience many moons ago. Infertility, missed miscarriage, endo etc. Once my endo was treated I went on to have a healthy pregnancy. Take all the time you need to get over this. I'm not religious but I found lighting a candle helped me when I was feeling low after my loss. Hugs to you.