Hi CremeDeSudo, it's not easy but I'll share my experience with you and the ladies on here and anyone else going through this ordeal. This was my second miscarriage recently and this one has left me down but I'm confident I'll pick myself up.
I'll spare you all that happened before this but assume all the same with excitement, hope, plans, especially waiting and trying for nearly 7 years now and this was our third attempt at IVF. I'm 31!
Well it was a positive test and I did everything I was told. Ate well. Slept well. Water and folic acid.
It started when I had a bit of blood in week 5 and day 4 and then 3 days later a liner of blood overnight. I was on progesterone tablets. 1 week later I had the Week 6 scan, no heartbeat but still a little early so After 7 weeks I was told I had a miscarriage.
I was told to wait up to 2 weeks and stop tablets and it should pass naturally, if not, contact the clinic. Went back to work and 2 weeks later nothing passed.
After week 2 I was told to take a pregnancy test to see if the hormone level is still high. It was positive. If positive, next step is a scan.
I went for a scan the next day which showed gestational sac but it looked like it had divided into 7 sections. I was told it was 'cystic' and similar to another ailment and could be the placenta taking over the pregnancy and trying to maintain it. In any event, it needs to be gotten out as there's definitely no baby.
I was told the options are:
- Wait
- Medicine - oral or vaginal
- Minor surgery
1 wasn't an option unless I insisted on it but in their opinion I'd waited long enough. Option 2 had the lower risk, is 80-90% successful, will be painful cramps so need strong pain meds and need to be off work for minimum 2 days and after 10 days come back for a scan. Option 3 was more successful and it would be sorted and done after a few hours. This would mean anaesthesia and hospital stay for a few hours and is more successful. Had usual surgery risks - infection etc.
I went for option 2.
After taking the misoprostol at 12.30pm vaginally (because vaginally is faster), by 6pm I was cramping and needed my tabs. I wore a very heavy flow thick sanitary towel. I chose nurofen with codeine and took that with paracetamol. It worked! I felt like my pad was soaking so went to the loo. Sure enough it was drenched, I sat on the toilet and immediately I was flooding the loo with blood and then came through what felt larger than golf balls, maybe tennis balls passing right through into the toilet. Loud large plops and a very messy water closet. 3 blobs fell through. I had to flush 3 times!! It was not painful passing but just shocking and emotional.
Then I went back to lie down and 30mins later the same wet pad feeling. Sat on the loo again and had a repeat blob passage. This happened in total 3 times with heavy flow passing through within 2 hours.
After that I just felt numb and tired, went to drink lots of water. Haven't had an appetite since I was pregnant and still don't have any appetite.
It's now 3 days later, the cramps stopped previously but Day 3, they're back.
Today is Friday. This scan and tablet happened on Tuesday. Day 10 scan is next Friday and I'm looking forward to finding out this nightmare is over.
I'm sorry this post isn't positive and hopeful but it's realistic and it's raw emotion and probably how many people feel at this point and it's okay to feel this way. Its okay to be angry and upset and stay up all night crying whilst the hormones are still clearing and I deal with what feels like devastating grief and work through to acceptance. I'll pop back and share when I feel much better.
I'm sorry for your loss and I hope you feel better soon 😘