I lost my little girl at 41 weeks in February. I had a perfect pregnancy with her and sadly she died after 19.5 hours of labour, we had an emcs but it was too late to save her. It's been just over 12 weeks from our loss and we still haven't had any answers about what happened to her - although we think it may be a mix of hospital negligence and infection we won't know for sure until we get her post Mortem results back. These 12 weeks have been INCREDIBLY difficult and to be honest I don't know how we even got this far. One thing it has made me realise through is how much we would love to have a brother or sister for her in the future, not to replace her but just to add to our family, She was our first baby and I've never felt love like it before.
I would love to try right away but I'm worried about her post Mortem results incase it's something unexpected or genetic which would cause us to lose another baby - I couldn't cope with this pain again and I'm also worried about my csection scar and healing. My doctor has said that we can try now as he recommends 12 months between surgeries and that would mean trying after 12 weeks/3 months is ok..but I've heard others be recombined to wait 6, 12 or even 18 months after a csection. I think most risks are if someone attempts a vbac after a section which isn't a concern for me because I would never ever consider a natural birth after my labour with my little girl.
I'm worried though that the longer I wait the more scared I am going to get and it might put me off trying altogether. I'm also worried if I wait too long I might have difficulty conceiving and would have wished I tried sooner.
I don't know what to do, I know I want to wait for the post Mortem results incase there is any medical interventions that could help prevent something happening to my next baby but I'm finding the wait so hard, im also terrified of what the results will be incase it's something that means we can't try again.
Just wondering if anyone has any advice or has been in a similar situation - I'm finding it very hard at the minute
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steph0488 · 24/05/2017 12:49
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