I didn't think it could get any worse...

[Justalittleowl]

Sorry for the rant. Having found out that my baby's heart stopped beating on the same day as one of my best friends told me that she was pregnant I have today found out that she has the same due date that I would have had. This was the fourth baby I miscarried in my third miscarriage. I just don't think I can even talk to her any more and I certainly don't want to see her but I don't know how to tell her that. She supported my through my first miscarriage but I didn't tell her about the other two. I just feel angry and angry at myself for being so angry.

[PossibiliTea]

It is so normal to feel angry and you shouldn't feel guilty about it, it's a normal reaction for it to feel like a slap in the face (but a million times worse) I had a MMC 2 weeks ago so still struggling, and dealing with people leaving for maternity leave at work or returning from mat leave (I'm in HR). My best friend has recently had a lovely baby girl and I am happy for her but makes everything hurt a bit more.

I'm sure she would understand as she is a good friend and helped you through before, it is a very hard time.

I'm so sorry you are going through this but know you are not alone x

[Justalittleowl]

Thank you. Sometimes I just feel like I must be going insane to have these thoughts. It makes it a little better to know I'm not alone.I hope you are coping possibilitea.

[PossibiliTea]

Me too, I've had some horrible moments that I struggle to see past and I think so many of us feel like that. Thank you x I'm getting there but it's up and down!

Really hope you are ok, have you spoken to your friend?

[Justalittleowl]

I'm trying to draft something to send to her but am trying to say what I need to without sounding too much like I want to upset someone, because I don't want to upset her but I know it will. It's tricky.

[PossibiliTea]

Yeah I know now what you mean, something like you are happy for her but it's just a very hard time and it will pass, but you feel like the only way you can feel better at the moment is to give yourself some space? I'm sure you will let her know that you appreciate her as a friend but you will be a better friend after some time apart.

[PlayOnWurtz]

Normal to be angry. My sister and best friend both are due within 2 weeks of my due date (one either side of it) I can't stand to be around or near either of them any more nor do I want to hear about them. Right now I'm just really happy one has hyperemisis and is extremely unwell and that's not me. But I am so angry and so full of hatred for them it's hurting me.