Hi everyone. Not really sure how to write what I'm feeling or wanting to say but I'll give it a go.
My first loss was a silent or missed miscarriage August 2015 at 19+5 (a girl) then had a miscarriage June 2016 at 16+3 (a boy) and most recently had a third loss at 18+3 December 2016 which was another silent miscarriage (a girl).
I gave birth to our first and third babies as my body was unable to miscarry in the usual way and I'm so grateful to have met and held my babies for those few short hours. They are memories that I'll treasure forever.
I've had various tests completed after the second loss and awaiting the results from our third at the moment but so far no abnormalities have been found.
I'm finding it so hard to cope with my feelings at the moment and although I am so happy for many friends who are having successful pregnancies at the moment, I find it so hard to try to understand why I can't do it :(
I've met some amazing people who have been through similar things since my first loss who are beyond inspiring. But most of them have gone on to have successful pregnancies and sometimes they forget that I am yet to bring home a baby.
I guess I'm just feeling very lost and alone right now and just keep thinking about all the what ifs if they were here, and the biggest if being what if I'll never be able to bring home a baby.
Has anyone got any suggestions how they managed with their grief and the what ifs we face every day? Thank you so much for reading and for your time, sorry if I have waffled!
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Needing a glimmer of hope after 3 later losses
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Heartfulloflove3 · 01/01/2017 17:38
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