I had a miscarriage on the 26th. It's my first one, but second pregnancy (I have a son). I was pretty sure I was pregnant but hadn't worked up the bravery to test yet. I wasn't ready for another baby yet, my son is only 14 months. I didn't want to be pregnant, but I was already accepting that I was most likely going to have a baby, and I was kind of getting excited. My husband was going to pick up a test for me on the way home that day.
But then it happened, and I saw it. And now I feel like I wished it away. It knew it wasn't wanted and so it left. Realistically I know that isn't how it works, but still. I feel so guilty. And I know I'm still not ready for another child, but...I want it back. I feel bad that it didn't hurt more and I didn't bleed more, that it was so 'easy' physically. I feel like since my baby suffered, I should, too...that something more should mark the occasion.
Has anyone here dealt with a miscarriage after not completely wanting another baby? or after a physically 'easy' miscarriage? How do you get over the guilt?
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sjohnson1131 · 29/12/2016 18:52
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