Thinking the worst!

[LittleFox10]

I've not had it confirmed yet but in my head & heart I already know! I was taking Clomid to try and get pregnant after having a loss at 17 weeks two years ago. I finally fell pregnant on my second round of Clomid and like anyone was absolutely over the moon. I went for a scan and they would see two sacs TWINS!! I wasn't expecting that but however I was over the moon, not only would we have one bundle of joy but we would have 2! However they were measuring small and no heart beat (I should of been 6+5) but they weren't concerned and wanted to scan me in the new year to see how it was progressing. However on Thursday I went to the loo and when I wiped there was bright red blood with small clots - sorry tmi. I called the doctor and was seen that day and he didn't really care, said there was nothing I can do, but has booked me in for a scan for Wednesday.

Today I just feel completely empty! I know my babies have gone, I just want it confirmed and all the bleeding to stop! I am absolutely heart broken and really don't know how I'm going to smile and enjoy Christmas with the FIL when we had a gift to announce our pregnancy to him.

5 and half years trying and now potentially 2 losses. Feel like it is never going to happen.

:(

[eggcup]

Oh I'm so sorry Littlefox. It's such a horrible place to be, having to wait so long to have your worst fears confirmed. I am in the same boat - scan booked for next weds. I just wish it was all over now so I could try to take part in christmas.
Don't give up! I hope 2017 is your baby year xx

[LittleFox10]

Ah sorry to hear your in the same boat Egg. How far along are you? Are you having twins or just the one? I'm trying to have a little hope that one of the twins will survive, but I just feel so so empty. What time is your scan? Will be thinking of you xxx

[eggcup]

I'm just over 9 weeks, not sure who is/was in there, had no scan yet. I'm going at 9.40am weds - you?
Everything crossed that you have some good news next week - will be thinking of you xx

[LittleFox10]

Awwr, it's such a horrible feeling of not knowing. Is this your first pregnancy? My appointment is at 9.10. Keep me updated on how yours goes! I hope you manage to enjoy some of your Christmas Day xxxx

[LittleFox10]

Not good news for me, I lost both my babies and had a negative test this morning at the hospital.

Hope you've had better news xx

[eggcup]

Oh so sorry to hear that littlefox. My news same - no embryo showed up on scan, but tbh i wasn't expecting it after the bleeding I'd had. Preg test was still positive though so I had the joy of still feeling nauseous...for nothing. Apparently it takes a while for the hormones to level out.
Hope you're okay, be kind and gentle to yourself. Xx

[LittleFox10]

I'm so sorry to hear that

My bleeding wasn't too bad which was why I guess I was hoping one baby survived but I knew deep down they were both gone.

I bled for 1 week and it's completely stopped now.

Take care of yourself xxx

[eggcup]

You too, really hope you get good news this year! Xx