Hey everyone, I'm new to these threads.
I have unfortunately suffered my first miscarriage 5+6 weeks into my secnd pregnancy. If I'm being honest something didn't feel entirely right from the beginning but I kept these thoughts to myself as DH and I had been trying for 6months and we were both so happy I wanted everything to be perfect. I woke on Thursday with cramps and light spotting which seemed normal and stopped by lunchtime, in the evening I went to the toilet and there was just blood everywhere. It carried on through the night into yesterday, we went for an emergency early scan and there was no baby, they did give us abit of hope by giving me a blood test and asking me to come back tomorrow for another to compare as it could be to early to see on a scan but I saw what came out of me, I've lost all the tenderness in my breasts and the nausea I was experiencing for the last few weeks. I have definitely miscarried.
I feel completely heartbroken, alone and numb. I loved this baby with everything in me as soon as I saw that blue line. People mean well but say things like atleast it wasn't further along and more developed, atleast this atleast that. It makes me scream inside, I don't care if it was their size of a nut, if it didn't look like a baby yet, that was MY baby and I feel like I failed in protecting it. Everytime I went to the toilet and saw the blood, that was my baby dying and I couldn't stop it. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to process these feelings, I suppose I'm looking for support from women who have experienced this as no one I am close to has ever had one. Thank you.
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Tryingtostayyoung · 10/09/2016 10:30
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