Hi,
I've read some of the posts here and I know that others have been through so much. I feel guilty for posting about this because it's not come to the worst yet but I'm just not coping and I'm desperate.
This is my first pregnancy. After some spotting and a little discomfort I was sent to EPU on Monday when I should have been 6+1 according to LMP. They scanned and found a small, empty sac - no yolk, no fetal pole. The sonographer said she would have expected to see more if I was 6+1 and this looked more like 4-5. It seemed perfectly possible dates were just out but they tested my HcG and it was 18000, which would be sky high at 4-5 and places me at about 6-7.
When they rang up with the HcG results, the nurse sounded so sad on the phone. I have another scan next week on Thursday to try to find out what's going on but they've already said they expect a blighted ovum.
The problem is I'm not coping at all. I keep telling myself things could be so much worse - they've caught it early and other people have been through tougher things than this and coped okay. I've even read about people online miscarrying at work and just getting on with it or taking a day off and then going on with life. It hasn't even happened to me yet and I'm awake most of the night every night worrying and crying every day. It's hugely disrupting work, to the extent that I have had to call in sick today. I feel like such a failure in every way. I know this reaction is extreme but I can't seem to get it under control.
I don't have anyone to talk to except for DH as we haven't told anyone else yet. TBH I think this whole experience is exposing other problems that I have. I'm really struggling in my current job and am afraid I'm going to be sacked. I've been struggling with depression and anxiety for years and recently came off my medication so we could TTC. I would have put it off for longer to try to get myself together a bit more but we are up against it in terms of my age.
I know there's no advice anyone can give really. I just needed to say this somewhere because I feel like I'm falling apart.
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Just sac no yolk on scan with high HcG - not coping
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Vida32 · 09/09/2016 12:03
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