I don't think I have ever posted as much as I have in the last few days...Now that I've posted about the physical side of things and I'm feeling like I'm 'healing', I am now coming to terms with how I'm feeling mentally.
I had an ERPC 6 days ago for a missed miscarriage found at our 12 week scan. This was our second pregnancy after our DD (6yo tomorrow!) who has Spina Bifida. It was a meticulously planned pregnancy, we took 6 months to fall pregnant and we were so excited (but nervous) so it was such a huge shock to find that the baby had died.
After having these two pregnancies and 'unlucky' scans, I don't know how I'm going to ever put myself through this again and God
knows how anyone would ever get me in a scanning room after the trauma I've had.
I have this overwhelming feeling of being angry at everyone who is bragging about their happiness...even if it is non baby/pregnancy related. I've had to stop looking at Facebook because my jealousy and anger makes me feel miserable. I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself because we have a disabled child (who, don't get me wrong is the most amazing human being on this earth) and now a miscarriage so why should everybody else get all the luck and happiness in the world? Surely we deserve some too? Will I ever be able to shake this horrid feeling? I can't spend my life being bitter. :(
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EmilieR91 · 03/08/2016 17:55
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