Hi all
This is my first time posting. Im a little lost atm
I had a miscarriage earlier in the year at 9 weeks and was absolutely heartbroken and not expecting it as i am a mother to two healthy young boys. I sucked it up and put it down to just on of those things that happens and probably wont happen again. I miscarried naturally on the same day i started bleeding
We tried straightaway and were thrilled to become pregnant again. Everything was normal and i had my twelve week scan and saw the babys heartbeat.
Everything was perfect and i could feel the baby moving (or what i thought were movements). I had three days left until my 20 week scan and i came from work and wiped away blood. I was horrified but didnt feel any pain so was thinking positive. I went to AE the gynae and he did a scan and i could still feel movements and felt positive. But he told me that unfortunately he disnt think it was good news as i had fresh blood during the speculum test and baby wasnt moving on scan. I felt absolutely devastated and the whole night i cried and didnt sleep.
I was asked to come back again for a confiration scan which confirmed baby had passed away. I was told to come in two days and be induced but again my body naturally went into labour and i delivered my baby boy
He was 14.6 weeks old and had passes away for 5 weeks and i had no idea. The labour was awful but i would have gone through ten times worse if i could have my baby back. It wasnt meant to be and im dealing with it trying to figure out what happened and i know i will never be able to pinpoint it. He was perfectly formed with all his fingers and toes and the word miscarried really doesnt sum up this experience
Im so depressed and angry and upset all at once. I dont know what has happened. I have no health problems and it seems my body is working well as both times i miscarried naturally wthin 24 hours of onset symptoms
I want to try again straight away but is it to soon? I want to try as i feel like it will make me feel positive and concentrate my emotions onto a positive new beginning but im so scared of miscarrying again
I have only shared this miscarriage with a few close people as i feel embarassed and ashamed especially after being so happy and talking about my lil one and my maternity leave and planning my future out
I guess i just wanted to share this to take it off my chest
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Miscarriage/pregnancy loss
One miscarriage at 9 weeks followed by a late miscarriage at 15 weeks undetected until 20 weeks
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Jasmine3105 · 03/08/2016 15:52
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