due date coming up

[RoTo72]

Hi. Just getting really low again recently. My due date is two weeks away and I'm dreading it. My ds (autism, 15yrs old) has had a nervous breakdown, resulting in him trying to commit suicide a few times, meltdowns and wrecking the house. He is now under Camhs care and on anti psychotics and anti depressants. My OH left about 6 weeks ago as he couldn't cope with the stress (he is not ds father, but we have been together 6yrs). I'm now having to deal with DSs problems alone, had to leave work to look after him. Lost touch with my friends, as I can't see them. And more importantly have to deal with due date alone. I feel sick to the stomach with everything, had to see GP today and get anti depressants. I'm just lost.

[caza25]

I am so sorry for your lose and for everything going on. Is the GP able to refer you both for family counselling or are you able to get support from other services/ school. Also have you tried calling miscarriage association just for someone to talk to. Also if you just want to let it all out on here I am happy to listen. I just want to give you a big hug and take all your pain and stress away. I totally hope your DS is ok, he must be going through such a hard time as well. Xx

[RoTo72]

Thanks for your reply. He's getting counselling through Camhs weekly and at the end of each session I go in and we all go over what he said. I was doing well regarding my miscarriage, never forgot but thought id dealt with it. Maybe it's just the due date being so close, I suppose we will always have triggers.

[caza25]

I am glad he is getting some help. I found the build up to my due dates hard but the exactly day and after I felt ok. What I did was I planned to mark the due date and that helped me to think of my lost Angels. I light a candle and gave myself time to think of them. It was exactly nice to be able to do something and to think of their memory. I know some other people plant a flower. I read recently, it is the good ones that go. xx

[RoTo72]

I plan on going to the baby garden where her ashes r scattered, and then release a balloon r lantern that evening. Think its important to mark the day and honor my little one

[JOMH1982]

I am so sorry to read what a hard time you are having. Life is just terribly cruel.it sounds like some reflection time in the baby garden would help you. Sending you lots of strength and hope for happier timesahead xx