Hi
I'm lucky to have two dd's but in feb 15 I lost my ds at 20 weeks. I'm 42 now and have been ttc without success for nearly a year with low ovarian reserve another child is unlikely to happen now.
Today I had a weep because we have been changing rooms for dd2 and decorating her new bedroom and her old room would have become ds's had he come along. It is a pleasant room with a bed setee. I find myself sitting in there sometimes and crying at what could have been, knowing it is unlikely to be occupied now. Probably will be a guest/laundry room. I torture myself by imagining it painted out for ds. Just wondered if this has happened to anyone else? I knew it was going to happen, just like I know all the baby related stuff from dd2 will soon need to be packed away, just struggling with all of this when in my heart I feel I should be mum to 3. Sometimes I yearn to move somewhere with just enough bedrooms to accommodate us as this feels really painful.
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Spare room - sadness at how it should be occupied
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monkeytree · 26/04/2016 21:44
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