Hi Ladies,
Thought I would share my story with you all and see if any of you can help me get through this chapter in my life...
me and my partner were trying for our 2nd baby for 8months I finally fell in November which was the perfect month as we wanted the baby to be here before our son started school next September. we told close family and friends over xmas as we hadnt told anyone prior as we wanted it to be a surprise for them which it was then I started to have a little pink and brown bleeding the week over xmas, i thought it could be a little bit of a period as that is when i would have been due on until i had a bit too much for my liking on NYE night so went to hospital and they booked me in for the Monday to have an early scan.
Monday came and they scanned me and found the baby was only measuring 5 weeks... I was confused as I thought it should be around 7-8weeks... my last period was 2-8th November... they told me I would have to come back a week later to check the growth... the worst week of my life, never felt so stressed, confused, worried, angry or upset. I tried to stay positive but I new my dates and when i returned last Monday they told me there had been no growth, i had a feeling this was going to be the outcome as my boobs had also started to stop hurting a few days after my first scan and the bleeding went more dark red rather than pink and brown... i felt so lost and heartbroken that i had lost our baby... i had to go back the Wednesday to have an ERPC and have just been bleeding light here and there...
My feelings now are all over the place i am back at work trying to keep my self busy but when i stop and think i feel guilty that i haven't thought about it or been crying today.. i feel more emotional and think a lot more in the evenings so i am trying to keep busy...
i don't know if i should or shouldn't be thinking about trying again in a few weeks/months, how soon after did you try?
i feel guilty to think these thoughts and feel bad on the one i lost like i am replacing it, never experienced pain and upset like this before :(
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charlotte1990 · 19/01/2016 14:05
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