I started miscarrying on Tuesday night. I had red blood when I wiped. Saw my GP on Wednesday who did an internal exam and said it didn't look like anything serious but in the very early hours of Thursday morning I had to go to A&E with heavy bleeding and severe pain. Eventually transferred to EPU who did another, more thorough internal exam by which time my cervix had opened and the miscarriage was in fall swing, confirmed later that day by scan. I've passed the sac and DP and I buried it in the woods near us in a nice quiet area this afternoon. Now I just have a follow-up scan next week to confirm that everything has passed but it is pretty much over.
Now I just don't know what to do with myself. I don't want to return to everyday normal life. I'm self-employed and I need to get back to working next week although I will take it easy on myself. I don't want to wallow but I feel like I'm keeping myself constantly distracted so I don't have to process the emotional side. Every now and then it breaks through and I get upset then I push it aside. I've never been the most openly emotional person but I'm just scared that if I don't let myself grieve I can't fully heal.
I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm drifting about the house not getting back to normal but also not letting myself process anything.
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InsufficientlyCaffeinated · 09/01/2016 15:20
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